My First Magazine!

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I find my self always conflicted about doing the right thing. I want to be fair and good and have some integrity. I strive to be this perfect person. I want to have all the answers and feel confident that I'm doing the "right" thing. I berate myself endlessly if I mess up. Relationships are so important to me. I bleed myself dry till there is nothing left. When I don't feel I'm getting what I give I become resentful.
I understand people are endlessly flawed and so am I. I need to be forgiving and just trust people. I was talking to Marie and we share an affinity for wanting that unconditional love. Is it so hard to just be honest and trustworthy? Why do I have to work so hard? Why can't I just make a connection with someone with out worrying about their intentions?
Everyone has there own logic on why they act the way they do. Seriously though...Don't say things you don't mean, or at least be able to back up why you would act a certain way.

I have had a strange week, dealing with people I love, friends I care about and the mire I must walk through to keep those relationships going.

I just want people to behave in a decent way. Or at least the people I love.
My frend ikoi said" you can't control other people's reactions- but you can control your reaction".

I suppose that's all I have.