I did it

My school loan went through, I have a place to live and I leave tomorrow! Im so excited. I left on thursday and spent a grueling couple of days trying to track down a place.I was convinced I was going to have to stay in a hotel for a couple of days. I had over looked this ad for a 31 year old female with cats yadda yadda...It was close to my school, like two blocks in fact. So i called and met her in the afternoon. The place is a 1920's building. You walk in and see this beautiful old mosaic ceiling. It really reminds me of something out of an old movie, a cold stairwell lead me up to the last door on the second floor. I was greeted by this enchanting women. Her family is from the dominican republic but her and her family lived in New York until she left for la about a year ago. She is a writer and working on a screen play. heh. We hit it off immediatly and she ask me to live with her and her cat.The place is a charming studio. Small. There is an alcove where the bathroom and closet are. Also a tiny kitchen, it couldn't be more perfect. Yay! LAter that night I met up with my new friend Greg. An awesome kid who wants to spend time showing me around. Yay again. So tomorrow afternoon Im off to move in with the Lovely Virgina and start class on Monday. It all worked out!

Wow

I went through and read all of my e-mails sent and recieved the last week. Nuts...Last two months of blog posts, also nuts.

I think its safe to say I have been out of my mind. Nervous breakdown? Or one in the works. The string of events leading up to it when looking back this year were all good reason for this reaction.

I felt like I have been floating through life, feeling suffocated and never really making the attempt to escape. I finally did ready or not and I ate shit. I wasn't prepared. I just didn't know how to handle it.

I wasted so much time and Im really sad that I let things go as far as they did. I let myself die. I gave up on everything.

I will never let myself feel like that again. I want to start over. I have a great oppertunity to do that right now. I just want to complete school. Thats all Im going to worry about right now.

To be continued.

Ah...much better.