sick again?

I spent yesterday night and all of today curled up in bed. Garth left to do family stuff. He's at churchills right now. I am spending christmas sick and alone.
I will probably have to call in sick tomorrow. Unless I can stand up with out feeling nauseated.

Friday was just odd. I felt like a square peg in a round hole. Lions and tigers and BEARS Oh my. There was a forest of bears at fashion whore. Emily and I were quite amused by the whole thing. I mean, it was at the Brass Rail.
I saw Nate. I was just stepping out of the bathroom. I couldn't see anything, the floor was black and the club was dark. I was stumbling down a ramp in heels. Then I heard my name being called. I was tired and dehydrated. So when he came up to me I just wanted to flee. Not because i didn't want to talk to him, i just couldn't. I was worried he thought i was uninterested in seeiing him. I got some water and waited for Charles and Em. I was really happy to see her. She's loud. I like loud girls.

I didn't stay for the fashion show. Again. I don't really need to. Obviously I saw all of the designs and did the makeup. The designers had a cotton candy color theme happening. Lot's of ruffles. Like a popple had designed them.
I enjoyed doing the makeup. I was able to be more creative then usual.

Tonight I am sick. A very sore throat and headache. I'm also quite punchy. I can't direct attention too long. I was trying to have a serious conversation with Garth. I'm not really sure what I was going on about. I know it didn't end well.
Tomorrow I'm suppose to work at Fashion Whore. I would cancel right now if there wasn't a small chance I could feel better. I hate canceling last minute. I need a lot of recovery time to myself when I'm sick or stressed. I just want to fly away for a bit and come back when I feel strong enough deal with all of the chaos in my life.

Oh, This band and this song in particular is really fucking beautiful

here's a picture of Andria from a photoshoot with Image Factory West